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There's NoWhere Else on Earth I'd Rather Be...

Truer words were never spoken by me

except when speaking of my husband, children and home.

And yet, I work 40 hours a week at a job that takes me away from my home.

I like it.

I'm good at it.

I make a decent living.

I dislike not being at home, but it was a good fit for my family.

FOR AWHILE...

Mom and I, once again, attended BYU Womens Conference in Provo Utah.



I was an emotional wreck almost the whole time.

Don't get me wrong, I LOVE Women's Conference.

I love my mom.

I dislike being told something I already know, and don't know how to get away from.

Most of the conference talked about being righteous mothers and wives.

Expected... I knew it was coming.

To have the General Relief Society Presdient say, very publicly, that the "swing shift" is the most important shift of the day, when speaking in terms of "mom's hours." I lost it completely... 16,000 women in the Marriott Center and I am feeling this horrific sense of guilt.

Basically, it comes down to the hours between school ending and bedtime are

the most important hours a mother has for raising her children.

Those are the exact hours that I am at the job for which I am most financially compensated.

My family requires the income, especially since My Hero is back at school.

And yet, I KNOW that I am not supposed to be doing this anymore. I have been rationalizing for too long, and something has to change.



SO...

I am revisiting Substitute Teaching.

I am renewing my teaching license in June, then submitting applications to surrounding school districts.

I am shopping for private health insurance.

I am working TONS to save up for the first two months of Substitute Teaching. I want to have enough set aside to cover bills in case I don't get called to teach, even though I will probably stay at my present job for at least a month after school starts, to make sure we have enough.



I was reading today in the Book of Mormon where Nephi says "I will go and do the things which the Lord has commanded, for I know the Lord giveth no commandments unto the children of men save he shall prepare a way that they may accomplish the things which he hath commanded them."

I have not been this peaceful in a really long time. I know that I am taking the right steps. I just wish that I could see what is next.

My cousin, Heath, said the strangest thing this weekend.

He said, if you ever want to hear true laughter, tell God your plans.

I realized, after thinking about it, that I spend a lot of time telling God my plans, instead of listening to the plans He has for me.

I'm sure His plans will take me to a place where "There is no place on earth I would rather be!"